I often field questions about my faith on a weekly basis. A lot of those questions come from young adults ranging from grades 9-12 and adults who knew me 10 years ago or just recently.
I don’t know if there’s a general interest or people are looking for me to break and show that it’s been a facade. Answer is simple: It’s not a facade and I break everyday.
I sin every minute because I’m a human being who’s not perfect but I try everyday. It’s a choice each and every morning to make time for Christ. When I wake up in the morning and if the first thing I think about is grabbing my phone to check messages then there’s a problem. That may be an addiction issue. But i’m guilty of that. I’ve done it many times and I’m not proud of it.
Every Friday night for over three hours I spend time with close to 100 kids who are impressionable and going through the toughest aspect of growth, puberty. And high school isn’t all rainbows and unicorns either. It’s not easy to preach to them or tell them how they should act. The best thing I can do is know my strengths as a leader and lead by example. Do some kids pull me aside and talk to me privately? Absolutely and I cherish those moments because they trust me and I don’t want to let them down.
I take the same approach with my adult friends. I’m not sure if they trust me or count on me to give them answers or to guide them in right directions but relationships are very important to me.
I liken our relationship with God similar to our relationships with other people. At the beginning, everything is new and cool but there comes a time when the dynamics of the relationship begin to change and a Christian becomes more centered, more rational, and more aware that the walk with God is no cakewalk. And that’s eye opening and not an easy pill to swallow.
Peter writes about that in the New Testament when talking about how God gets us through various trials.
“So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you must endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.”
Although I’ve experienced and enjoyed the highs and lows of my walk with Christ, I would not trade any of the scars and battle wounds because they remind me of how faithful Christ has been to me.
There were people who told me in the beginning that I was going through the ‘honeymoon’ period and things wouldn’t always seem so wonderful. Of course they were right. Where I stand right now has taken a different shape from when I first announced Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior.
With everything going on in the world today with the hate, politics, and choosing of sides I have to constantly remind myself that man will destroy man but there’s only ONE solution for me and that’s to rely on the promises God told me.
A lot of people today are unbearable to read at or listen to because everything they say are judgemental, political, and full of hate. I can’t live like that it’s too encompassing and mentally draining. Social media has recently taken a complete turn for the worst.
Pastor Steven Furtick said a few years back that ‘We compare our behind the scenes to everyone else’s highlight reel.’ And that slogan has stuck with me and I try to live through that ever day I click on Instagram, Facebook, and Twitter.
I struggle everyday with trying to be something I’m not or hating myself when I look into the mirror but I know it’s a problem and I just have to tell myself who I am and Who’s I am. It’s not easy growing up in this world and I see how difficult it is when I meet with these high schoolers every single week. It’s a completely different scene from when I was there age 10 or so years ago. It’s truly mesmerizing.
Look, I have a lot of problems just like everyone else but I’ll never hide them from people. We don’t have enough time on this earth to hide those things. I’m happy that in today’s day of age people are more accepted than in the past for their interests or fashions but it’s still a tough crowd there, so please guard your heart.
The Lord has me every moment of every day and He will forever meet me where I am. That is something I can worship and hold on to. Not crossfit, not pro wrestling, not baseball. But Jesus Christ is my constant and He’s never let me down yet.
Faith can move mountains. And when yours gets tested, keep it and watch the favor shift back. Be patient and be grateful for this day.